May 23rd, 2010

Morning folks coffee is ready!
What a beautiful day sunny with temps in the 80's and I have lots of cold BEER!

We are planning another fir tonight but this time we will do it out front and have some neighbours over. i am going to do some Jerk pork on the pit and a whole bunch os spider weinies and some cheesy sausages.

oh ya and I will be playing the music not my 14 year old daughter. LOL

Good morning everyone a little cloudy and cool today but I have a hot deal look at the for sale section hehe

Good Morning Sunshine!!!! Thanks for the coffee!! Bright, but cloudy overcast day today! I think it rained over night. I had the windows open and it was nice and cool in here this morning. Oh well.... trying to be bright and sunny on the inside!! trying very hard to have a new outlook on life.. maybe i can bring happiness of its own accord into my life by trying to have a positive attitude... Law of attraction. i can sometimes fall into the doom and gloom fatalistic mind set so am trying very hard to avoid that at all costs. My best freind found an ad for a NICU job for a new womens and childrens hospital opening in ERIE, PA in early 2011!!! Hmmm.. can we say, "fresh start?" Well, we shall see... so very much has to happen for that to happen.... sell a house, get a PA nursing license, get a divorce, get full custody or a legal agreement to take liam there, (I have ammo for that at this point... bad bad dirt), and finally, let liam finish his school year before i can go since he is now entering kindergarten. At this point it is just talk.. but i am thinking seriously about it since Erie,Pa is only just over an hour away from all my family and friends in the Buffalo-Niagara Area!!!

I have now weeded out about 85% of my wardrobe... i am severely crippled fashion-wise! Trust me, it's a good thing!! Worst is though i still am a little voluptuous, curvalicious.. (sounds better than plump, fat, rotund) and have 25 more pounds to lose! Lost 40 so far! But hey, it needed to happen, part of my new life, and part of getting healthy again! Going to have a yard sale in two more weeks!! Hopefully someone will buy all my uniforms and dresses...most of which are gently worn. I never had much occassion to wear dresses over the years thanks to butthead so i never dressed up.. well now it is my new thing to just wear a dress if i feel like it! hahaha

Babby steps vampy, baby steps! You'll get there.

Ok folks back out to the sunshine and cold beer!

4hams wrote:Babby steps vampy, baby steps! You'll get there.

4hams wrote:Ok folks back out to the sunshine and cold beer!

Yes, I know.. Baby steps... i know i get excited, but believe it or not i do have a level head about this, and at this point it is just talk though i am thinking very seriously about it. I have never ever been one to go head first diving into anything without very careful and long consideration for things. It is just that it is comforting to know that if i had to, or that if given the chance i could just pick up the pieces and heave myself up across the miles, that i could restart again and not suffer too badly for it. However, when it comes to change in my life, huge changes tend to happen suddenly. I think something that could sum up the path of my life is for it being an ironic paradox of events. Just when things seem to be taking one path all of a sudden i encounter a switchback. It would take a lot to just explain this.. For as much as i like to think and make careful consideration for things, sometimes things happen suddenly or just plain out of the blue in my life. I plod along and then suddenly things lurch forward or change in a whirlwind... then they calm and i sail the calm sea again for a while. Currently i am in one of those whirlwinds though at the moment this is the eye of the storm where things are relatively calm.

Ok.. so not much for beer... I'll take a nice cool glass of sweet red wine...muscadine grapes make very nice table and dessert wines here in the south. I wonder if i can bring a few bottles across the border for us lady folk! hahaha :hahapirate:

Congrats on the -40 VG, keep up the good work.

bob2701 wrote:Congrats on the -40 VG, keep up the good work.

Thanks I'll have to put up a pic of a before :oops: and afters one of these days.

Pictures oh ya we love pictures!

4hams wrote:Pictures oh ya we love pictures!

Hahaha.... yes pictures are good! Posted one over on the Tree the other day as a matter of fact. I'll have to post a pic of me the night i got all fancy an spiffied up a couple weeks ago when i went out with the girls to a musical!